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... I watched you both smiling over the old photos that morning, saying how chubby the baby was.  I saw the joy in your eyes... I can't tell you enough how happy I am here ... I love you

... ... ... I would tell you, "It's true heart."

Last night, I had words that would best break the silence & tears that finally fired after being suppressed deep under for too long.  Perhaps to my delight, I could still feel my heart, which was good.  Yet the familiarity of heartache added on to my sorrow.  I couldn't bring myself to ask you those words... I could no longer walk with you... Maybe we should talk things out but I wasn't hopeful that it would bring about any difference...

Yesterday it was the last day of Michelangelo Antonioni Retrospective.  He was indeed a great master & it is hard not to feel sad after watching his films.  Looking at the relationship between Man & Woman, and love.

And along the way, ...

Towering at 8.5m tall, "David" greeted the visitors upon entering the entrance of the Singapore Museum in his textile clothing of handmade brocade usually produced for the kebaya or traditional Indonesian women's blouse.

Dolls... a chance upon encounter...

Someone told me, "Happiness is not about how much you have, but how much you don't mind having..."

I am really tired today...

As I rushed to put on my shirt & jeans, skipping breakfast & rushing for the door in a mere 20 minutes since I opened my eyes, I could still hear my mum commenting.  She couldn't comprehend why it was important for me to make this trip all the way there.  Only I knew & I didn't want to regret it.  I ran, like a scene from a drama but probably looking like a mad lady to others.  My bus came at the right time, and I took the train next like a marathon race.  That was all the time I needed. I started to have time wondering why I couldn't wake up earlier to be in such a rush, and what if they decided to play the program earlier - (a pre-dubbed program with the trailers already in between.) in the journey.

Reaching the destination at 1120am, I flew in trying to hear what they were playing. The program was on and just started.  My colleague spotted me & asked, "Here for a show?"  His question took me by surprise.  How would he know? 

"Yes!"  I said.

A guy on bicycle who must had been behind me, passed us & asked me, "Late for work?" 

I just smiled.

I sat myself down.  With my biscotti & a hot milo in hand, I waited like a kid for this friend I came to know in such a short time.  This time waiting to say "Hello! & Good-bye!" 

Event :  Singapore Airlines International Cup & KrisFlyer International Sprint

Venue : Singapore Racecourse

Prize Money : $3,000,000 & 1,000,000 respectively

Date : 18^th May 2008 (Sunday)

> The Entrance Greeting

> Pretty Lady Horse. Muack...

>  "Welcome" - A Chinese Wording Printed On Its Cheek.

> Side By Side : Greeting the People on Level 2 Entrance.

> A Cool Dude which I like... CUTE!

>  Horse Power!  Pretty creative, I would love to ride away with this one. ;)

>  A clearer full shot.

> Another cute dude!

>  A full-shot.

Did you know?

"The average speed of a racehorse is around 60 km/hr with the elite horses approaching 70km/hr.

A thoroughbred on average weighs 450kg.  Each day, it consumes about 10kg in feed consisting of a mix of grains such as oats, corn, wheat & barley as well as a mixture of nutritional supplements & hay."

- Info from 1 of the Printed Panels beside sculpture.

RESULTS : 

Singapore International Airlines Cup Winner : No 1. Jay Peg (South Africa) (Jockey : A Marcus) 

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Krisflyer International Sprint Winner : No 2. Takeover Target (Australia) ((Jockey : J. Ford)

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My current status : Aching Feet & a Hungry Stomach (But happy ;)

Fade To Black... Gd Nite

And yes God wants us to love one another but we cannot force another party to love us or blame ourselves when it couldn't happened.  It is idealism just like saying life should be fair.  But we all know life will never be fair.  Yet we could still seek to accomplish this idealism.  The last I heard of was we were the slaves of God & we were accountable to answer our lives to him?!!!

I do not recognise the God they told me about.

I believe in freewill.  I believe God is kind & gentle.  God will not force me to do what I don't want to do.  He or she is one who can sit with me for a coffee & tells me what happens in his/her garden like a friend.  The God I believe will neither judge nor contempt me cos' I'm given freewill to lead my life & be responsible for myself.  God only wants the best for us.  God never has the last words cos' God is still living & life is all about changes.

I wrote these just to say, end of the day no matter what or whom you believe in, you must be happy & your heart should be free.    

It was hard to contain the excitement that I thought I had lost time to time, to race & ‘fight' for the chance to play the trailer I was commissioned to do earlier that was accidentally forgotten to put in the playlist to air in the Horse Racing channel (just discovered today).  It was a compilation of the winners of the Singapore February featured races.  With the March coming to an end, the chance to air it had greatly diminished.  And tonight being the Singapore horse racing day, I was more than grateful to be able to play it even 1 time in a mere 1 minute flash before the start of the ‘live' program.  In the frenzy state of 6 minutes left before the Preview Program coming to an end & going into a string of trailers, I was still thinking whether I needed to transfer the trailer out to another tape for the playback & freeze the ending to transit smoothly to another tape playback.  Being calm & composed as usual, the 1^st Producer on duty simply asked me to show him the trailer to decide.  He jokingly asked if it was another's person's work, would I be equally anxious & concerned.  I wouldn't know for sure but I think I will definitely try my best.

And there I played my trailer ‘live' as though it was my first in front of the ‘live' audience & the viewers at home.  I am crazy but I am happy.  My ‘baby' was on air!  It was a simple but heart felt trailer that I love!  Tonight, going through this emotion made me think of another...

Just about a week ago, the 'past' me wrote this after finishing another winner playout of the Singapore Guineas race,

"Tonight I felt being moved by a moment of winning that was in my edit.  It was made up of very simple cuts of an opening intro freezes of "Singapore Guineas 29^th Feb 08" jockey winner who rode the winning horse - Onceuponatime.  The freezes slowly "zoom in" fade to black & fade up again to his winning profile.  Then it faded up to the race montage, whereby this hot favorite horse that night was right at the back of other riders even till hometurn.  Then the jockey kept pushing him & to the punters' delight, this horse surpassed one after another & finally fly straight to the finishing line.  It was an inspiring & beautiful race!  I was moved.  I was excited.

Perhaps I founded the ‘right' music, the ‘right' state of mind & a moment of silence at the right time."

- 04 Mar 08 1:14AM

Relationships between a simple 2 are getting paper-thin.

Does getting older leads a more barren road?

I mourn for the time lost, for the present has turned sour.

2 came together due to misunderstandings,

and parted due to better understanding.

I shall ask no more if the time we had was real.

I shall look no more whenever you walked away.

I shall seek no further beyond the shut doors.

Memories running past like an innocent child with a world that was small then

but enough to hold a big heart.

It was good to be small.

Before the Lunar New Year ended next Thursday on the 15th on the Lunar calendar, hereby ...

My first time receiving a rose from somebody & she happened to be my Producer... 

It was sweet that simply brightened my morning... 

It been a rough long day racing against time...& I was trying to open my eyes to stay awake to blog these few lines...

She also gave to her male colleagues & one told her that guys don't need.  He was worth a tease cos' end of the day, he was trying to get the rose from another guy.  Probably ‘collect' another 2 more stalks to make out a meaning "I Love u" to his wife.

Why guys don't seem to feel the magic of flowers upon receiving one themselves...??

... ...

Happy Sweet Valentine's Day!

Zzzzzzz............

"Wait..wait...I also want to take pictures..."

"...my camera..."

"I also want to take...One more....one more..."

Snap...snap..snap.

We were so busy taking pictures like an auto cue. Beeli's luggages had already checked in.  Hence we borrowed the crucial ‘props' (the luggages on the trolley belonged to her friends who happened to come back to Singapore on the same day from their trip & came to send her off too.)  For the background, we had the usual ‘Bon Voyage' signs in different languages & best were the ‘must-have' policemen in uniforms.  They were kind of amused by our action.  I was telling Beeli to give me a ‘leaving shot' as a closing & requested her to walk in & turn around for my camera.  I was sure that sounded corny, after all this was not directing a ‘drama' scene for TV.  But we certainly drowned her departure with our hearty laughter rather than tears & sadness.

>>> Her camera batt was running low, so had to HURRY.

>>> Dunno why she always looked bigger than me on pictures leh...heheheh

Not my fault.

 >>> T he emotional scene with her sister...almost missed...so blur blur...

>>>  The Big Bang Gang Posing...

>>>  Her dramatic HUGE wave goodbyes sweeping screen left & right with her classic line, "Don't Wait For Meeeeee...!!!

>>>  Her backpack that stunned me with the size & it was so heavy that a thief probably give up even trying...

Take 1 : "ACTION!"

Alright I gave up.  Just GO!!!

She fly her waves again after all the document chop chop & she was gone for her 8:15pm flight...

An 8 years old little girl who should be laughing and running around & enjoy the process of growing up, was lying on a hospital bed. Unfortunately she had leukemia...

Standing between the light & the shadow,

They brought fear and also hope...

They fought very hard to stay alive...

They fought very hard for their love ones...

In this passage of time...

Sadly, they left...just days away from our Lunar New Year...

One was my friend's father...

Another was my Aunt's friend's daughter...

Some things may have changed,

Some people may have left,

Some people came to stay...

Another New Year you may have said,

But may we see it an individual named 2008.

And cherish all the people who are still around us...

Happy Lunar New Year with all the Best Wishes!