Tonight poor ef fort in trying to get a pic of the heavy duty "aliens" on the way home 11pm++... At times I really imagine it with all the lights... and I'm flying low... ...
Lights off today for the second cut review. The director's tears fell unexpectedly at a father & daughter quarrel's scene. I think it wasn't my edit. I can see how the story lingers at his heart. Making a film is never an easy ride. Be it good or bad, after all the hard days' work, from a script to a moving picture, with all the hearts involved, the satisfaction resulted is unspeakable.
Opening my emails tonight after days, I was sad to learn that actor, Makoto Iwamatsu had passed away at the age of 72 on Friday. An unforgetable actor to witness.
TV & Film Credits : "The Sand Pebbles", "McHale's Navy", "I Spy", "MASH, Quincy", "Walker, Texas Range"r, "Seven Years In Tibet" , "Pearl Harbor", "Conan the Barbarian" and "Conon the destroyer...
The issue about punctuality sounded today. It has been adding considerable weight over the years more so ever when it comes to productions, I am less forgiving. Especially making one waiting without a word that he or she will be late, not even a single bit of being apologetic when one finally appears and those who are so often late that it becomes a term called bad habit. I am not able to comprehend the thoughts behind people who you hardly know yet whom you are still making an effort to help, can treat you this way. Punctuality is a very basic respect for another person that I think it is not too much to ask for. If one is going to be late, I think it's deeply appreciated to at least inform. I still can tolerate 10 minutes of lateness. Anything far beyond is really too much. If it has becomes a bad habit for one, is it so difficult to arrange a later time then? End of the day I think it's impossible for one to take another for granted if you truly appreciate something, anything. I think it's not wise to interpret people action too much, with life being such a larger picture in one precious lifetime. Maybe being through so many bad experiences, a lot of things have become so precious to me that are often taken for granted by so many. It's amazing how one can feel inferior by another person treatment and attitude. Some times the coldness is so hard to bear that you wish a hug could chase it away. But it's not that easy to chase away that kind of coldness, and the 'bad' cycle seems able to repeat itself but in different form. I see them as tests but if you keep failing the subjects that can be pretty depressing. A human heart is the most precious cos' it's able to create warmth from nothing in endless form.
I feel extremely exhausted mentally and physically recently as though a vampire had sucked away all my blood and left me a bit leftover thinking that will make me an immortal. I was munching on a papaya slice this afternoon at work and the next moment I seemed to have passed out for a moment before I woke up with the piece still nicely intact in my mouth. What was embarrassing was a quiet room resulted whereby I was supposed to amend my edit. Finally I surrendered & excused myself for leaving work early than usual.
The only thing I was quite comforted and glad to bring home end of the day was the nice feeling of the first preview scheduled today that didn't resulted the director and writer from stabbing themselves or fainted from watching my very first attempt to edit a feature film. Their 1st feature film as well. Of course there are room for improvement, just that I think the edit overall looked pretty decent. The magic of 'live' trimming worked really well. It had been like a pretty long journey with all the logging, digistising and syncing sound & transcoding. I was amazed I had come this far but I still have another 50 percent to move on. Like struggling to keep my head off the water, I wonder with care how long I can hold on without getting myself drown...
The fish said to the sea, "You can't see my tears because I'm in the sea."
The sea told the fish, "I can feel your tears because you are in my heart."
These were unforgettable lines I heard from a drama that I had watched whereby the characters were talking about hated. How one is unable to forgive because he or she couldn't feel the pain and remorse from the person they hated. Unless one is able to be magnanimous just like the sea mentioned here. I think these lovely lines can apply to love as well. "You can't see my tears because I'm in the sea." - " I can feel your tears because you are in my heart." The opposite of it is painfully sad...
What's the worst can happen when you leave home in the hurry to realize you are in a wardrobe of green? That was what happened to me this morning - Kaki green pants, green sweater and green bag. Quite relieved that I didn't leave home in my green cap like my previous wardrobe disaster. My previous episode was the most hilarious. Seriously I almost threw up seeing myself in green from top to bottom in the mirror before I step out of the door, forgetting that my every individual piece when matched together only resulted a 'big' green. I was passionately in love with green previously that my wallet, my bag, camera case, bottle holder and my umbrella were all in green. My sister joked that seeing any piece would know they were mine cos' they looked like a package deal. It was said that liking a color in certain period in life represent something so I did a check up on the net and discovered, green represent growth. Then I fell in love with white later on, and now pink. But I dunno what it represents yet. Quite delighted to see a cute and chubby baby in pink on the train today with the baby's mother in pink too.
Felt like a mother deprived of seeing my kid. The big mistake I made was not knowing Discovery Channel has International and Asia website. I thought it was one big channel screening the same program internationally. It can be a problem when you don't have Cable program at home. I hope I didn't missed my episode on the China 21: 798 Art Factory (still ain't sure if that was the final title.) The program series premiered last Wednesday night 28 Jun. I am so keen to catch it after all the Online changes and Post sound being done.
Quite shocked to learn in the papers today that Brazil lost in the World Cup match, leaving Germany, Italy, france and Portugal being the toughest four to advance for the Grand title.
Have to catch up power sleep for the work ahead tomorrow with the first deadline chopped chopped next week. Trying to keep my eyes wide opened in my waking hours. Good nite Cyberspace! Sweet dreams...
I think my site is experiencing some problem with displaying my pictures. Some still couldn't be displayed after these few days suddenly or is it my computer settings problem I ain't sure. Can anyone tell me what you can't see? I am still hoping to post up more photos.
My energy level is still pretty unstable. Maybe need some power up by some positive external source. Hoping to see a friend but I risk losing my latest memories of sweetness I kind of self-indulgenced in. Sooner or later they still possibly ended in vapors. I think I'm just like a kid who refuses to let go of the air balloon I'm holding to. But I guess since I'm not causing any harm to anyone, so I can still admire the air balloon I'm holding to. Should I make the call? Weekend ended up so quickly. What did you burn them up with? Mine was like a half moon.
A friend of mine seemed losing heart too. A film production is like a marathon race. When you can no longer run together with speed, it may be time to take turns to run; so long the team reach the finishing line and don't drop the baton.