A beautiful meeting it was when chanced upon a good screenplay & seeing it well delivered. So fully absorbed into the story that awakened my heart & my passion.  I could followed it & care not where it would lead me to, & death felt nothing in my blood that gushed inside feeling high from replaying the scenes, the music & lines spoken.  I would rather die than not doing anything in my life.  A day feeling like these didn’t come easy, nor does it come frequent.  Not that there ain’t many good work, but some will strike chords deep inside.  I wished there was a path I could follow where it would leads me to my full potential.  I have yet find it, & feared if that day would really come.  I have brought back my soul & self from my trip this time, but my heart was so saddened by the gloomy scene ahead.  I have neither power nor wits to change what lies around me.  I asked what more I could do.  I was tempted to draw a wild card to see the World lying on the other side, rather than being in the safe comfort zone.  I wish I found my full potential & used it all.  Yes all of it till my time is up.  A script that I wrote was lost close to 10 years ago surfaced again & I was shocked that I was the one who actually wrote that.  There are friends who know your sensitivity, but will not specially stretch out their hands to you nor offer a hug.  Does that add more steadiness to a heart or independence I do not know.  This is life & you have to grow in it.  Don't despair for you still have yourself.  Let there be light, let there be strength, and let there be courage for all who continue to walk on without turning back. Yes take heart.